It’s been 1 year now since we gave our adoption profile to our agency.
The truth is recently I have felt more stress, disappointment, and frustration than excitement. The other day when I told someone we were waiting to be matched with a birth mom her response was “Wow, that’s so exciting”. I answered her honestly though and said “You know I used to feel that way, now I just feel frustrated”. Most people don’t find it exciting anyway or at least they don’t express that to me, so I rarely tell them how I really feel. Because no one wants to hear that you are sad and frustrated about your adoption process. They just want to hear the happy.
However a conversation with my mom this morning reminded me that even though I have been feeling this way, I do believe and know that our next child will join our family in God’s time.
“But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.” 2 Peter 3:8
Once I reminded myself of this I began to think, how did I get to this point? Where did my excitement turn to frustration? It happens so easily. The hope and excitement that keeps you going starts to get exhausting when you are trying to manufacture it yourself. Because real hope and joy come from relying on God, for He is faithful.
So today I will pray believing. I will claim the promises that God has given me and rejoice in His faithfulness. While I do not expect all those around me to be excited about our adoption process, I will rejoice on my own. Instead of feeling sadness when I see others having children, I will rejoice with them and continue to pray for our child’s birth mom, that God would protect her and give her strength. I will continue to give thanks to God for all our friends and family that have surrounded us with love during our adoption process.
I am waiting on God’s promises and He does not disappoint.
“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14