Ever feel like someone just knocked the wind out of you? That is how I felt this weekend.
On Saturday, we received a letter from our current adoption agency stating that they had made the decision to discontinue their child-placing services. My first reaction was WHAT?!! I could not believe what I was reading. I read the letter about 5 times. Then I showed it to Jason. We were both in complete shock.Â We spent a great deal of time searching for the right adoption agency. We prayed about it and felt that this one met our needs. How could God allow this to happen?
Since I was getting ready to leave for a birthday party, I didn’t have much time to process this news. Later that evening I tried to think of how this circumstance fit into God’s plan. Most of the situations in my life that have led to the path of adoption were not what I “wanted”. However I have learned now to see them as blessings in disguise. This is just a slight turn in the path God has us on to our child.
It may be that the agency didnâ€™t have the resources to function properly and we would have waited longer or that our child is in a different area and we need to get more exposure through another agency. Only the Lord knows.Â
I have been reading passages of the Bible that are about prayer for the past month and this was yesterday’s reading:
Luke 11:9 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.Â
After reading that I prayed that God would help us locate the right agency for us and that He would continue to lead us down the right path to our child.
At the bottom of the letter from the agency there was hope. The director has already taken steps to form her own adoption agency. She will have her placement license in the next few weeks. We could contact her if we wanted to.
Jason and I both really liked the director and her heart for adoption. She was one of the main reasons why we chose to go with the agency. So I emailed her yesterday stating that we wanted to talk to her. She was very proactive and called me right away.
So despite what was a very confusing and frustrating weekend, I feel like it was really God’s plan all along. The director was very happy to hear from us and would gladly accept us into her agency. All I have to do is call and tell them to give her our file. She also said she would honor the fees we had already paid to the other agency which is a great blessing.
Each day I learn that trusting in God is the way to avoid heart ache and pain. I know that He wants what is best for me. This past Easter Sunday we sang the song “Because He Lives”. It truly ministered to me in my time of need.
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.
Whatever your situation is today know that God holds the future. Trust Him on days when everything is going well and when it seems like all has gone wrong.