We have been waiting to be matched  with an expectant mom who has made an adoption plan, for more than a year now.

It is hard to wait. Infertility still hurts me even though I feel called to open adoption. Lately that wait has hurt a little bit more.

My son is almost 3 and loves babies. He has 4 baby dolls and he likes to take care of them. Anytime that we see a baby he wants to kiss it, hug it, and hold it.

But now he has started expressing himself even more with his words. At first he would just say “I want a baby brother” or “I love babies.”

Today we were on our way home and drove by the hospital and he asked me “Can we go there? I want to go to the hospital? I want to get a baby sister.”

My husband and I both almost started crying in our seats.

I told him “No buddy. The babies there have mommies.”

He said “But I want a baby sister”

I have told him many times that only God can give us a baby.

We pray together and this is what he says “God I want a baby brother (or sister depending on the day) Amen.”

I smile but my heart is breaking. I know that God’s timing is not ours. But Dear God please give him a sibling soon.