So it has been a little over 2 weeks since we brought MacMillan home, and life as I know it changed dramatically.
First I must say what a blessing it has been that Jason was able to take 2 weeks off of work and stay home with us. He waited on me hand and foot, did the laundry, the dishes and helped with the meals.
Some friends and family also brought us meals which was a blessing.
But now we enter real life. Jason went back to work and I embark on this new job as a stay at home mom. Since I have been watching children in my home and have worked as a nanny I kind of had an idea of what to expect.
I must say it really is everything I hoped it would be. Diapers, bottles, laundry, spit up, forgetting to brush your hair before you leave the house, fitting in a shower when you can, waking up in the middle of the night to feed and change diapers and my favorite baby cuddles.
All those people who tell you “enjoy your life before kids because you won’t be able to do … afterwards” are totally ignorant of how much pain I felt, as someone who wanted to have a child but couldn’t. Although we did travel and do fun stuff before he was born, none of those experiences or sites we saw can compare to the joy of having MacMillan in our lives.
His dirty diapers and midnight cries are something that I always wanted. Every time I sit in bed trying to coax a burp out of Mac, I say a prayer thanking God for the blessing of a child and for his birth mom who allowed me to be his mama.