For those of you who don’t know, the adoption process is a waiting game. Much like pregnancy, you never know what will happen and no two adoptions are the same. Often you will wait and it will seem like nothing is happening but behind the scenes God is working on your miracle.
We are still on the “waiting list” with the agency and were told we should be taken off of it during the “summer”. I am claiming God’s promises and knowing that it will happen in His time. His time is such a mystery to me.
2 Peter 3:8 But do not let this one fact escape your notice, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years like one day. The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance.
So these past 6 years of dealing with infertility were just as one day has passed by. Patience is a lesson learned daily. Letting go of the “control” I have in life is a lesson I learn every moment of every day. So as these days have passed by, some longer than others, I am choosing to see how the Lord has used me. Many of these things I would not have been able to accomplish if I had already had children. I look back and I am amazed by what God has done.
I have cared for many children in the past 6 years, one who needed a mother figure during a difficult time, some who just needed a loving environment in the midst of a crazy day, and others who don’t even know me but I sent my love to them in shoe boxes. While I was doing these small things the Lord was using these children to draw me out of depression and heal my heart-broken by infertility. Teaching me that I have the capacity to love a child that is not my own biologically but that will be one of my heart. So He has prepared my heart and made me feel like I never thought would be possible. As I prepare for the new addition to our family I look back and think how God had this planned all along and how now I can’t imagine having a baby any other way.
So if you are amid a trial today keep in mind that every situation is just a brush stroke in the masterpiece that God is making for you.